A Day In the Life...

Burned out

2006-04-17T14:08:41Z

Welp, 2 more weeks of school left and I can't fucking wait. I just want to get the apartment together, get my dog in there, make it look more liveable, and well, it seems like every time I line something up and take a step in the right direction, something gets in the way and yeah...I don't know...
I haven't been to the bar so much lately. Went to the Intersection for a La Famiglia show and got hit in the head with a beer bottle...or so I told Dizz that night...who really knows?!?
Oh well, hopefully I get to hang out again soon...come one...two more weeks.

Myspace Whoring

2006-01-15T15:07:28Z

Well, it looks like I've neglected LJ for 3 whole months, due to my recent myspace addiction. Since most of you are all on there anyway, I guess I hadn't taken the time to check back with my roots...the place where my internet social life truly began.
Lately nothing has really changed. Break ups suck. I'm losing my house. I have a huge work/school load this semester, and I'm just hoping to make it out alive. I'm sure I will, things always look up, and someday, I'll look back and say, damn, why was I so worried about all of that, I champed it, I survived, I'm stronger and have managed to successfully start out my new life. Well, hopefully anyway heh.
Anyway, things to look forward to:
Wa's b-day...and I can't wait. Extravaganza 2006...EXCITEMENT.

And I'm spent....

This only happens once a week, so I better make it good.

2005-10-05T13:30:22Z

I want a vacation. But for now, weekends will suffice, although I truly only get one day off a week...boo! but at least I'm making money, I guess. Whatever it takes to keep me smoking and driving. I've got a massive history test tomorrow night, so it looks like I'm going to have to stay sober tonight, folks. I know it's sad...and I want to cry about it, but for now, I'll just leave it at that.
I'm hungry, never should've eaten that bologna samich last night, now I want more ;) But anyway, I really have nothing interesting to say...so um, maybe I'll post twice this week to make up for it...and I think there's someone working here...but I've never seen him before...wtf...where did that come from...I mean, we're a pretty tight family here...and then this random guy comes in at 9:30? uh...hello...where's my fuckin raise? jk jk...but seriously where did he come from?

okie time for spanish...neato.

For Wa, but I can't promise an award winning update...

2005-09-30T13:02:11Z

This week has been poorific. I have, however, recently become obsessed with Melanie...I don't think she's had a hit since the 70's, but I just love her flippin voice. Dizz...she sings the "Look what they've done to my song" song...who doesn't like to sing a little french, belt it out once in awhile, Lord knows I do :)
Anyway, I've had quite the string of nostalgic conversations lately. Greg started hanging out with this guy Andy Brown that I used to be pretty good friends with in high school, so we've been chatty on the instant messenger, and it's nice to know that Bob is telling everyone I've got a girlfriend, but whatever, takes the pressure off me having to say anything about it. Bob called Wednesday to tell me Alice's Restaurant was on the juke box at the bar he was at, and it made him think of me...and that he had nothing else to say. Then he called last night while I was in class, cause he was leaving the bar, and Katie wouldn't answer her phone, and he wanted to party...then Nate called about an hour later while I was still in class to tell me that he had a dream I had a baby. He didn't know anything about the kid, if it was mine or not, but I was holding on to it...he's also been making friends in Tennessee which is good to hear. Mike's in jail, but gets out today for the DUI thing er whatever. But I guess Nate met this chick and her girlfriend, and the chick's name is Turtle...made me laugh, I love turtles, so I guess the whole chick with a girlfriend and her name's turtle prompted him to call. It finally sounds like he's made a place for himself down there, and I'm proud of him, Grand Rapids allowed him too much room to get into/start trouble.
Other than that stupid noise, I'm excited to start the weekend. I want/need to unwind/party. I also have lots of homework and a 5 hour shift, but I'm over it, if I don't relax, my stomach is going to eat itself, the constant puke taste in my throat needs to go away...maybe I'll just drink til I puke.
Tonight, DIzz, 5er, Ju and I are gonna make our way to Skegon...finally do the little cemetary run that I feel I REALLY really need right now, as well as some scribs in my belly. Also, hopefully there's a magical way that we can get some weed...that would rock my face off. Otherwise it could be a silly sober ride...and the thunderbird doesn't take too kindly to sobriety. heh. Anyway, I hope all is well. Hope to see all/most of you this weekend...we allllllllll need it I'm sure.

It feels like days since I saw you...and I don't like it!

2005-09-24T14:43:14Z

Well, this is going to be kind of a sappy post, but you can thank ms. neen for that;-) (why do I call everyone ms.? oh well). Anyway, it has been a crazy week, and I am happy to know I can sleep in her arms tonight. I know that I sound really lame because we do spend every night together, and you would think I could handle just one night on my own, but...no. Thursday we went to Dizz's and got drunk, went to my house and fell asleep, and when I woke up, and looked at her, I knew something just wasn't right...she doesn't usually look sad in the morning, sometimes grumpy, sometimes happy, usually hungry...but never sad. After we both cried (I know you're all shocked that I cried, cause I NEVER do ;-)), I just wanted to be in her arms for the rest of the day. I couldn't stop kissing her goodbye that morning, and maybe it's because I knew what would lie ahead of me last night...I knew we probably wouldn't see each other, but still wanted to be optimistic.
Dizz and I went to rescue 5er last night, completed the operation at about 3am, and I really wanted to drive to her house and crawl in bed with her, but I was scared that she probably hadn't slept much already, and me waking her up could be really bad since she had to be up for work by 6. So I laid in bed for what seemed to be hours, it was a couple, but definitely seemed like forever, before I finally fell asleep. I woke up a few hours later, and then she called...she overslept, and won't be getting any breaks today...so, today has started out bad for her, and I wish I would've been there now, but hopefully today passes quickly. I get outta work at 3, then time for some super fun language lab action at GV for an hour, then hopefully she will be out and I can shower her with lovin :) Then we can find something fun to do!?!
Last night went better than we anticipated although later than we anticipated. It's good to have our 5er back, with more of her stuff, and a positive frame of mind. I wish I wasn't working today, but oh well, it happens. I guess I'd better get back to my files...they are strewn about the office...looks pretty disasterous...anyway...hope everyone is doing well!

Julie, I love you so much, and I'm sorry it's been a rough couple of weeks...I can't wait to see your beautiful face when you get outta work.

WTF?

2005-09-17T15:50:05Z


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Don't know what that's about...but whatevs...I am sick...and at work...and bored. Holla.

I've got a song to sing-o...

2005-09-16T12:35:44Z

So...I just read Mr. Tully's post, and looked at the pictures he so graciously threw a link in there for and yeah...I'm jealous. It makes me realize how much I haven't seen, and how much adventuring I have yet to do. Such a crazy huge world out there, and I've only seen itsy-bitsy bits and pieces. Some of the pics made me a little sad, cause there were people in there, including Jake that I haven't seen in years...and it makes me sad to admit that...the most I'd gone without seeing them before was maybe a couple months...oh well, that's life, I'll get over it.
I spent last night alone, sick in my bed. I feel like crap lately, but I don't know what to do about it...it is just how I feel while I'm in school. Sick. Most of the time. My car is broken...definitely broken, and I don't know what to do about that either. I feel like sucha burden on my dad for all of that. I just want to magically receive a car...anyone wanna give me a car? heh.
I just feel really sad today in general. I haven't really been my happy self lately...and looking back on pictures of years passed...it's like my smiles get more and more fake as time goes...stupid feeling sad.
At any rate I'll be going out tonight and I miss everyone.

Love Love Love

Ok Ok

2005-09-08T18:39:45Z

So...I haven't really ran it by Dizz or anything, but who really needs to...we're pretty much the same person(since the fusion), so she should already know what I'm thinking...maybe the get together on Saturday could also be a little celebration for my birthday, since it's monday, and who the hell is gonna hang out with me on a monday...plus I have work and school tuesday from 8am - 9pm...so, unless anyone else has any bright ideas of something fun to do for my birthday...that's all I got. I guess that is all I really wanted to say...nothing too exciting. Hope everyone is having a great day/week see everyone soon!!

Love LOve LOVe.

Where have you been, my blue-eyed son?

2005-09-02T12:44:21Z

So...it's officially time to get my party pants on...I am totally looking forward to the three day weekend, and not going back to school until wednesday. I want to get out to Skegon, gas is really flippin expensive though, so maybe I'll just make a few phone calls. Too bad I can't call the cemetary...er...that was kind of awkward...what I really mean to say is...I feel like a horrid daughter for not going to see my mom all summer. It's really not like me to not be out there like every other week. I feel like a fatty, just ate some McDonald's Breakfast. Schweet. Alright then, someone give me a call if anything fun is happening this weekend. Good Day.

Not much to say...

2005-08-31T13:00:46Z

Don't have a whole lot to talk about, school and work are keeping me really busy, and it's only the 1st week! In either case, I miss you all tons, and hopefully this weekend we can hang out, maybe er somethin. Now for my sappy section...DIZZY (JJ), Ima miss you. It makes me sad to think that this is pretty much the first time in years that I'm gonna not see you for this long. Pretty much we've been attached at the hip, and I don't really know how to go a whole weekend without you, much less a 3 day weekend. ::sigh:: But enough about that, and before I cry about it...better just wrap it up...hope everyone is having a fabulous day...

LoVE lOVe LOVe

Holy Shit I never update

2005-08-19T19:59:35Z

Anyway...there are a few things I'd like to share...#1: Julie's new place is fabulous. #2: I love the White Stripes. #3: Everyone needs to go out tonight!!!
So...today sucked balls, ony 6 people at work...but hey, at least we're abnormally slow, so I'm abnormally busy, but not overwhelmingly busy. I have to attend visitations for the funeral of my manager's sister tonight, not real excited about that, but I need to show my support nonetheless. She went to my mom's shit, so it's only right, right? Anyway, the CompuFamily is a little sad, and our hearts go out to Marie and her family.
So, with that said...in about an hour and a half I get to blow this popstand, and hurry to prep myself for this, then get back, and party my brains out, eventually...Jimmy is home alone, so I will have to chill with him for a bit...but I'll be back in the game soon...yay!

okie guys....

2005-08-08T20:51:42Z

My fabulous co-worker, and friend fo' life, Greg, is a livejournal virgin, and I would love for anyone interested to add him...he's great. His username is gregtch4...that is all. Thanks.

Thinking of the past...

2005-08-04T13:24:13Z

So I miss summers that weren't so responsibility ridden. I miss running wild through the streets of downtown GR, drunk off my ass, and carefree. I miss blasting Rancid and flyin down the highway, most of all, I feel like I'm straying from the path of myself. Maybe I'm just changing unbeknownst to me? Like all the sudden I'm a grown up and I missed out on the ride to get there...one day I woke up and said...wait...what happened to that innocent girl, maybe not so innocent, but the one that did whatever the fuck she wanted even if it could mean trouble...is she gone forever...all the risk, and fancy free feelings are gone...I need some spontineaity...I need to learn how to spell that. Most of all...I need to go back to school soon before I lose it.
And I dropped a class...don't know if I made the right decision yet, but, here's the run down:
Got an email from the prof that I will have to complete 20 hours of tutoring/observation during the semester, doesn't specify when, and says that schools and times will be assigned. Whoa nelly. So I had 14 credits, and now I have 10, I just couldn't see how I could complete it, I have to work a minimum of 40 hours a week here to stay on insurance, and to get paid vaca and sick time, and I have to do that for 2 years, cause I don't know, it's just the rules...otherwise there's too much paperwork for the office manager or something...whatevs, but I couldn't see tackling 4 classes, plus the 20 hours over the semester, and 40 hours of work a week. I hope I'm not fucking my shit up by prolonging this more...but I'll have to finish 3 semesters of spanish before I apply to the college of ed anyway...sigh...welp, I didn't do it in 4 years, but as long as I get it done inside of 7, I guess I'll still be proud...hell, as long as I get it done I'll be proud of myself...
Anyway, enough of that...yay for everyone having new places to live on Friday...Dizz, Julie, Wa and Neen...Congrats!! I wish I was taking that leap outta daddy's house, but...maybe someday.
Ew and my dad said something about marrying his girlfriend yesterday...doesn't he ever learn? JC! Oh well, no use getting bent outta shape til it happens.

Love love love...c everyone at rumors tomorrow???? I sure hope so!!!

I made it through another "day"

2005-08-02T15:15:17Z

Welp, yesterday was one of those damn anniversaries...pretty much the only one I really have...still kinda sucks after 9 years, but ya gotta keep keeping on, man.
I don't know what my problem is, but I'm not myself, working on that...hopefully I'll be fully functional soon, the new and improved Jilly 3000...well, who knows how improved I'll be but happy is what I'm shooting for...I'll settle for content, but no less ;)
Nothing exciting has happened to me...just working and hanging out with Julie and the puppy...Jac and Dizz when time and puppy permits...hoping the summer doesn't leave me feeling like I didn't do enough...but I think it may be a little late for that.
Hope everyone is well...maybe I'll drive to Muskegon Wednesday night and bring the pup...visit mom...she'd be real proud of Oakley...okay...before I cry all over at work...I better wrap it up :)

Love Love LOve

Miss everyone lots!

"Cause I'm crazy like the rest of us..."

2005-07-28T13:11:58Z

So, this week couldn't possibly go any slower...however, my myspace and livejournal life is flourishing on account of the slowness, so I guess it's okay?
I am not really looking forward to this weekend...I mean, I'm excited to go to Leeann and Jess' ceremony, but it feels like everything is going to be one huge rush, and now I work Saturday, so I just hope I don't sweat through the dress before we get there ;) I feel bad because Julie has to work Sunday morning, so it pretty much eliminates any real partying this weekend, probably better for me in the long run, but it feels like that part of my life is lacking lately...I used to be a partier, thought it would last forever ::sigh::
Oakley is doing quite well, bigger and cuter every day...she's such a monster. Yesterday after work I began trying to throw some dinner together, when Julie calls...I had just let the puppy out, so I ran back in the house to grab the phone and a smokey treat, and by the time I get back outside to check on the pup, she's covered in muddy goodness. she found this tub of dirt that had been rained on recently, climbed right in and started goin nuts. Needless to say, dinner was postponed a bit, and Oakley got a bath. She hates baths. But we both survived, and now are mud-free. Wish I woulda got some pics...but I had to act fast, she was shakin mud off all over our white house. better hose that off...yep.
Hope everyone has a fantastic Thursday...
GoOd DaY =-)

The Good Things:
Oakley
M'lady
Friends
Lesbian Weddings
Cabbage Patch Babies.

I wish I were a koala bear

2005-07-25T13:05:46Z

My insides are rotting out...and I wish I could crawl back into bed with Julie...we were so snuggly this morning...I love those mornings...but I hate it when I try to ignore the time, and lay around til 7:30, and sometimes later...oh well...hope everyone has a fabulous Monday...

Boring Day

2005-07-18T20:21:39Z

So, today has been really bland...and I am tired of being here...
My dad called this morning to tell me that Oakley has worms...sweet, but he took the poo into the vet and got a script for her, which saves me from having to bring poo in tomorrow (she's got an appt. for her distemper shot), so I guess he just had to feed her a couple pills and that is done, and after today, she doesn't have anymore pills to take for the kennel cough so hopefully that will go away soon, it's so sad when she gets into a coughing fit, I just want her to breath normal...but her mommies smoke, which probably doesn't help the situation...anyway...
Friday night I had a flippin blast at Rumors...it's been a long time since we enjoyed the bar like that...we danced like it was the first time we went to the bar together...except it wasn't as awkward...you know...like how sometimes it gets screwed up..yeah...when you're not real sure how the other one dances...but um...anyway...
Tonight is the Ani concert...and I'm pretty excited, just got the call that everyone is already meeting up at applebees...so that's cool, cause I need food like whoa...yeah, I said it.
So, I hope everyone is having a fabulous Monday...I'm a little tired, but that's to be expected...sad I missed the extravaganza yet again, but that happens too...yep...welp...that is all.

this lil guy's cute

2005-07-15T13:10:03Z

...what a morning

2005-07-15T13:05:47Z

I'm such a baby...I cried on the way to work this morning, not sure if it was Oakley crying when I walked out the door, or Julie and I not staying together last night, but I lost it on the way in. It sucked...I had tears on my shirt, no one seemed to notice tho.
So, the thing that sucks most about being incredibly understaffed on a Friday is the lack of coverage when I need to fill my lungs with smokey goodness. I don't know if Janice is angry cause she couldn't get the day off, but I'm pretty sure she's been outside forever, and it is my turn NOW!
Anyway, my dad is puppy sittin tonight, so I hope everyone is plannin on making it down to Rumors...I'll try not to let my separation anxiety keep me from having a good time...but just to warn you all...I haven't had any drinks all week, so I might get really fucked up. My apologies :-)
Hope everyone has a fabulous friday, and have tons of fun in ludington for me guys...I'm jealous, but our furball is worth it. :-)

Love love love

That was cute

2005-07-14T13:30:17Z

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So, I am now in love with two ladies...Julie and Oakley...when I got out of the shower this morning, they were laying in bed...and it was the sweetest thing I've ever seen...I love them...but I'm sad that Julie doesn't get a day off until Tuesday now :-( Hopefully we still get a little time for each other with all of the puppy commotion going on...they are so beautiful, and I am so lucky to have them :-)

it's almost time!!!!!!!!!

2005-07-13T19:12:40Z

Julie and I go to pick up Oakley today...in about an hour...holy geez, I'm gonna burst with excitement. I'm basically done working about now...I have no focus, I didn't take a lunch so I'm antsy anyway...I can't believe this is actually, finally happening!!
So, I'm getting my mom face on, putting my party pants down, and hoping this parenting thing isn't too tough;-) I think we'll be good mommies, though...
Anyway...to all you ladies heading to Ludington this weekend: have a blast!!! Hopefully we'll see each other soon.
And Kiki, you are awesome and I hope dave makes your sad day better!!

That is all...love love love.

Puppy on the brain

2005-07-08T14:16:17Z

As you all might've already read...there is a new bundle of joy coming our way next week...and I've been reading entirely too much about how to train puppies. Hopefully I really use it instead of being a shitty mommy. I think we'll be alright though. I just wish we could bring her home already, but at least we know we have this last weekend to enjoy ourselves and not worry about the little one. This is so exciting...I can't believe it's finally gonna happen!!
Other than that, we didn't go to the bar last night...but ordered an incredibly large pizza instead...HUGE...and soooooo tasty!! I am pretty much killing time this morning, until I can go home at lunch to see my darling Ju, who is probably still fast asleep in my bed. JEALOUS! j/k...well, kind of.
So, what is goin on tonight? It's finally Friday, and I finally don't have to work tomorrow morning...so...yeah...I gotta get boozed up...NOW. :-) Hope everyone is having a splendid Friday, and hope our paths cross soooooooooon !

Love love love

Might as well update...

2005-06-29T16:51:20Z

So, tomorrow is Julie's B-day, and I feel like pretty much the suckiest girlfriend, because I really don't have anything planned...except dinner tonight. My neighbor, the one whose mom my dad WAS banging, well, her b-day is tomorrow, too, so we're all going to Brann's tonight for some STEAK...mmm. Anyway, I don't know what we're gonna do tomorrow, though, so if anyone has any good ideas let me know...cause I work all day today and tomorrow, and my planning skills are nonexistant.
Aside from Ju's birthday, nothing really fun and exciting is going on...well...the 4th is coming up...it'll be a year since everyone watched us make out in pretty much every room/area outside, one year since the first time I ever got to wrap my arms around her (and grab her boob, with a little help from Bri). I can't believe a year has come and gone already...well, we weren't exactly together until like another month passed...but...hey, I'm counting it anyway.
So yeah...nothing too cool and new to talk about, but it's been a great year...I love you guys...and babe...I love you lots and lots, and can't wait to be out of this place.
Love LoVe lOvE!!

I have to poop, NOW!

2005-06-27T14:56:24Z

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2005-06-23T19:15:20Z

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Yep...another one of those days...