| Burned out |
[Apr. 17th, 2006|10:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "High" James Blunt | ] |
Welp, 2 more weeks of school left and I can't fucking wait. I just want to get the apartment together, get my dog in there, make it look more liveable, and well, it seems like every time I line something up and take a step in the right direction, something gets in the way and yeah...I don't know...
I haven't been to the bar so much lately. Went to the Intersection for a La Famiglia show and got hit in the head with a beer bottle...or so I told Dizz that night...who really knows?!?
Oh well, hopefully I get to hang out again soon...come one...two more weeks. |
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| Myspace Whoring |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|09:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lie in our graves ~ dmb, thanks ma! | ] |
Well, it looks like I've neglected LJ for 3 whole months, due to my recent myspace addiction. Since most of you are all on there anyway, I guess I hadn't taken the time to check back with my roots...the place where my internet social life truly began.
Lately nothing has really changed. Break ups suck. I'm losing my house. I have a huge work/school load this semester, and I'm just hoping to make it out alive. I'm sure I will, things always look up, and someday, I'll look back and say, damn, why was I so worried about all of that, I champed it, I survived, I'm stronger and have managed to successfully start out my new life. Well, hopefully anyway heh.
Anyway, things to look forward to:
Wa's b-day...and I can't wait. Extravaganza 2006...EXCITEMENT.
And I'm spent.... |
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| This only happens once a week, so I better make it good. |
[Oct. 5th, 2005|09:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "I like it that way" Melissa Ferrick | ] |
I want a vacation. But for now, weekends will suffice, although I truly only get one day off a week...boo! but at least I'm making money, I guess. Whatever it takes to keep me smoking and driving. I've got a massive history test tomorrow night, so it looks like I'm going to have to stay sober tonight, folks. I know it's sad...and I want to cry about it, but for now, I'll just leave it at that.
I'm hungry, never should've eaten that bologna samich last night, now I want more ;) But anyway, I really have nothing interesting to say...so um, maybe I'll post twice this week to make up for it...and I think there's someone working here...but I've never seen him before...wtf...where did that come from...I mean, we're a pretty tight family here...and then this random guy comes in at 9:30? uh...hello...where's my fuckin raise? jk jk...but seriously where did he come from?
okie time for spanish...neato. |
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| For Wa, but I can't promise an award winning update... |
[Sep. 30th, 2005|08:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Be Here to Love Me" Norah Jones | ] |
This week has been poorific. I have, however, recently become obsessed with Melanie...I don't think she's had a hit since the 70's, but I just love her flippin voice. Dizz...she sings the "Look what they've done to my song" song...who doesn't like to sing a little french, belt it out once in awhile, Lord knows I do :)
Anyway, I've had quite the string of nostalgic conversations lately. Greg started hanging out with this guy Andy Brown that I used to be pretty good friends with in high school, so we've been chatty on the instant messenger, and it's nice to know that Bob is telling everyone I've got a girlfriend, but whatever, takes the pressure off me having to say anything about it. Bob called Wednesday to tell me Alice's Restaurant was on the juke box at the bar he was at, and it made him think of me...and that he had nothing else to say. Then he called last night while I was in class, cause he was leaving the bar, and Katie wouldn't answer her phone, and he wanted to party...then Nate called about an hour later while I was still in class to tell me that he had a dream I had a baby. He didn't know anything about the kid, if it was mine or not, but I was holding on to it...he's also been making friends in Tennessee which is good to hear. Mike's in jail, but gets out today for the DUI thing er whatever. But I guess Nate met this chick and her girlfriend, and the chick's name is Turtle...made me laugh, I love turtles, so I guess the whole chick with a girlfriend and her name's turtle prompted him to call. It finally sounds like he's made a place for himself down there, and I'm proud of him, Grand Rapids allowed him too much room to get into/start trouble.
Other than that stupid noise, I'm excited to start the weekend. I want/need to unwind/party. I also have lots of homework and a 5 hour shift, but I'm over it, if I don't relax, my stomach is going to eat itself, the constant puke taste in my throat needs to go away...maybe I'll just drink til I puke.
Tonight, DIzz, 5er, Ju and I are gonna make our way to Skegon...finally do the little cemetary run that I feel I REALLY really need right now, as well as some scribs in my belly. Also, hopefully there's a magical way that we can get some weed...that would rock my face off. Otherwise it could be a silly sober ride...and the thunderbird doesn't take too kindly to sobriety. heh. Anyway, I hope all is well. Hope to see all/most of you this weekend...we allllllllll need it I'm sure. |
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| It feels like days since I saw you...and I don't like it! |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|10:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  peaceful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My Humps | ] |
Well, this is going to be kind of a sappy post, but you can thank ms. neen for that;-) (why do I call everyone ms.? oh well). Anyway, it has been a crazy week, and I am happy to know I can sleep in her arms tonight. I know that I sound really lame because we do spend every night together, and you would think I could handle just one night on my own, but...no. Thursday we went to Dizz's and got drunk, went to my house and fell asleep, and when I woke up, and looked at her, I knew something just wasn't right...she doesn't usually look sad in the morning, sometimes grumpy, sometimes happy, usually hungry...but never sad. After we both cried (I know you're all shocked that I cried, cause I NEVER do ;-)), I just wanted to be in her arms for the rest of the day. I couldn't stop kissing her goodbye that morning, and maybe it's because I knew what would lie ahead of me last night...I knew we probably wouldn't see each other, but still wanted to be optimistic.
Dizz and I went to rescue 5er last night, completed the operation at about 3am, and I really wanted to drive to her house and crawl in bed with her, but I was scared that she probably hadn't slept much already, and me waking her up could be really bad since she had to be up for work by 6. So I laid in bed for what seemed to be hours, it was a couple, but definitely seemed like forever, before I finally fell asleep. I woke up a few hours later, and then she called...she overslept, and won't be getting any breaks today...so, today has started out bad for her, and I wish I would've been there now, but hopefully today passes quickly. I get outta work at 3, then time for some super fun language lab action at GV for an hour, then hopefully she will be out and I can shower her with lovin :) Then we can find something fun to do!?!
Last night went better than we anticipated although later than we anticipated. It's good to have our 5er back, with more of her stuff, and a positive frame of mind. I wish I wasn't working today, but oh well, it happens. I guess I'd better get back to my files...they are strewn about the office...looks pretty disasterous...anyway...hope everyone is doing well!
Julie, I love you so much, and I'm sorry it's been a rough couple of weeks...I can't wait to see your beautiful face when you get outta work. |
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| WTF? |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|11:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | A Hard Rain's a gonna fall | ] |
Don't know what that's about...but whatevs...I am sick...and at work...and bored. Holla. |
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| I've got a song to sing-o... |
[Sep. 16th, 2005|08:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fall Out Boy | ] |
So...I just read Mr. Tully's post, and looked at the pictures he so graciously threw a link in there for and yeah...I'm jealous. It makes me realize how much I haven't seen, and how much adventuring I have yet to do. Such a crazy huge world out there, and I've only seen itsy-bitsy bits and pieces. Some of the pics made me a little sad, cause there were people in there, including Jake that I haven't seen in years...and it makes me sad to admit that...the most I'd gone without seeing them before was maybe a couple months...oh well, that's life, I'll get over it.
I spent last night alone, sick in my bed. I feel like crap lately, but I don't know what to do about it...it is just how I feel while I'm in school. Sick. Most of the time. My car is broken...definitely broken, and I don't know what to do about that either. I feel like sucha burden on my dad for all of that. I just want to magically receive a car...anyone wanna give me a car? heh.
I just feel really sad today in general. I haven't really been my happy self lately...and looking back on pictures of years passed...it's like my smiles get more and more fake as time goes...stupid feeling sad.
At any rate I'll be going out tonight and I miss everyone.
Love Love Love |
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| Ok Ok |
[Sep. 8th, 2005|02:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Marie going click-crazy on her mouse | ] |
So...I haven't really ran it by Dizz or anything, but who really needs to...we're pretty much the same person(since the fusion), so she should already know what I'm thinking...maybe the get together on Saturday could also be a little celebration for my birthday, since it's monday, and who the hell is gonna hang out with me on a monday...plus I have work and school tuesday from 8am - 9pm...so, unless anyone else has any bright ideas of something fun to do for my birthday...that's all I got. I guess that is all I really wanted to say...nothing too exciting. Hope everyone is having a great day/week see everyone soon!!
Love LOve LOVe. |
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| Where have you been, my blue-eyed son? |
[Sep. 2nd, 2005|08:38 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Girl I wanna lay you down | ] |
So...it's officially time to get my party pants on...I am totally looking forward to the three day weekend, and not going back to school until wednesday. I want to get out to Skegon, gas is really flippin expensive though, so maybe I'll just make a few phone calls. Too bad I can't call the cemetary...er...that was kind of awkward...what I really mean to say is...I feel like a horrid daughter for not going to see my mom all summer. It's really not like me to not be out there like every other week. I feel like a fatty, just ate some McDonald's Breakfast. Schweet. Alright then, someone give me a call if anything fun is happening this weekend. Good Day. |
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| Not much to say... |
[Aug. 31st, 2005|08:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | peaceful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "A Hard Rain's Gonna Fall" ~ Jason Mraz (Bob Dylan Cover) | ] |
Don't have a whole lot to talk about, school and work are keeping me really busy, and it's only the 1st week! In either case, I miss you all tons, and hopefully this weekend we can hang out, maybe er somethin. Now for my sappy section...DIZZY (JJ), Ima miss you. It makes me sad to think that this is pretty much the first time in years that I'm gonna not see you for this long. Pretty much we've been attached at the hip, and I don't really know how to go a whole weekend without you, much less a 3 day weekend. ::sigh:: But enough about that, and before I cry about it...better just wrap it up...hope everyone is having a fabulous day...
LoVE lOVe LOVe |
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